"PIECE OF MIND"
Right now I am in the process of creating a series about being in a library. I am really interested in just normal everyday tasks, ones that we may take for granted many times.
One of the themes of this series is "childhood." The library is a very nostalgic place for me. It reminds me of being small and just feeling independent: getting my own library card, choosing my own books, being able to wander there alone in and out of the maze of book shelves...like some kind of wonderland. Which led me to my next inspiration for this series: the Disney movie "Alice in Wonderland," the cartoon version. The illustrations and colors are just wonderful...plus you have a quirky plot and strange characters, I love it! I just wanted to make these library pieces very bright and sort of wacky...trying to make the point that the library although it appears simple and boring, it's not. I do have to admit, I am not a big reader, but books can be very inspiring and can change people's lives....I mean these stories and characters were created in someone's mind. I think that's amazing...not at all boring.
Also the particular library I shot these photographs in had a very ~late 70s-80s feel...and I love that...I really hate modern looks (in my opinion, some "modern" architecture looks lazy and not very thought out, but that's just me ha). It really saddens me when people remodel places like these into "modern." So, one purpose was to capture this before it was "destroyed" haha and another was to capture the essence of a library. We live in a technology age where electronic book stores are taking over. I think this is great: we are being environmentally friendly saving paper, but at the same time in the future, the library could be in the category of the 8-track or having soda fountains in drug stores: not existing...where future generations might ask, "What's a library?" Just something I've thought about and wanted to capture. A big thanks goes to my beautiful model, my sister Lauren for taking pictures there. It was so fun, trying not to be loud or get caught...the crazy looks were entertaining haha!
JUST A FRAME, THE INVISIBLE SAME
"think your silly thoughts and dream your silly dreams. because without silly thoughts and silly dreams, we would all just be frames. all the invisible same. caught and lost in the silent background…waiting and wondering."
MOD LU AND STRANGE TIES
The pieces "Mod Lu" and "Strange Ties" were inspired by the outfit David Bowie wore in his "Life On Mars?" music video (pictured in the middle/ youtube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v--IqqusnNQ ) I love David Bowie's style and wanted to portray it in these pieces. "Mod Lu" is also about the idea of a paper doll: very beautiful but flat in dimension. Also how in my method, I can place or switch out any kind of outfit I desire on a model, similar to dressing a paper doll. I personally find later that some of my pieces may not have a deep meaning, but rather are just simply about composition or just being inspired by one particular thing, like an outfit I find intriguing. To me art is not all about portraying a message in every piece, it can be about just expressing simplicity. I feel many times it takes a lot of energy out of us searching for a complex meaning, when you can get so much out of the simple "flat" things. Savor the simple things...they can be deceivingly complex in themselves.
My Own Worst Enemy
This piece is about fear and self-hate. Two things that can consume a person and be major obstacles to overcome. Negativity from outside influences affects our self-perception, but once we internalize it we can become our own worst enemy. In my opinion, more than anything it's a mental battle within yourself...and the battle won't end until you decide to either believe the false negativity or rise above it, knowing your true potential. The main message of this piece is to be a positive, loving, open-minded, and constructive individual. I believe these qualities not only help you, yourself to move in the right direction, but they also can be internalized by others you come in contact with, making them feel courage and self-confidence rather than fear and self-hate. Just a thought.
NEW SERIES: "HAPPILY EVER AFTER"
Our True Lies
Happily Ever After in a pill. The Fix it Capsule. Smiles never fade.
Boys are Tough, Tears Scream. Don’t let them fall.
SHE: S is for Shop: her favorite thing to do, H is for HIS: spend all his money, and E is for Eat never: skinny.
SHE the Gold Digger Skeleton
She Cooks, She Cleans, He Gets the Green. He’ll Win the bread, She’ll Make the bed.
A nice tall glass of Lysol: Her favorite drink is not to think.
Here She Comes Miss America. Plastic doll: You’re so pretty. Let’s all look alike: pretty, crazy.
Mr. XY and Mrs. XX: The Perfect Biological Machine. No Dreams, Just Genes.
CHICKEN POX: BORN TO DIE
I remember finding old elementary school photographs and thinking I will never be able to do anything with these, and essentially placed them aside and paid no attention to them. Then one day I pulled them out again and started putting dots on their faces, which led me to the idea of Chicken Pox. Chicken Pox: An illness of childhood. Just like an illness and the spots of chicken pox, childhood comes and is rampant and then it goes…its innocence dies and fades when we grow up. It’s the harsh reality that we are born to die: at some point we have to grow up both physically and psychologically and there is an inescapable fate that our “childhood” will die and never be reached in that same form again.
I thought further about the meaning of the dots all over their faces. When you are a child everything appears simple: you’re cared for, protected, and free of worry and responsibility. But when you become older and more independent, and start understanding how the world operates, things become more complex and spotty, confusing at times. You grow older, you deteriorate, you become scarred. I also don’t know why I kept putting the word “CHICKEN” in the pieces. I kept picturing little kids saying “You’re not chicken, are you? Just do it!” This led to the contradictory concept of the Pressure we face to grow up, but at the same time being afraid or “chicken” to lose some of the best things of childhood: Curiosity and Imagination.
This series has been really interesting to me because these photographs express vulnerability: they will always be children in the pictures, but in the physical reality most of these people are adults now. They were once blank canvases, but as the spots appear, it’s a sign that time keeps ticking and moving forward: "There’s no such thing as Neverland."